turns out i’m not real great at this.

as in,

i’m not really great at not being able to share 100% of my life in complete honesty.

we are fostering 3 babies.

i can’t show you their pictures-

i can’t tell you the funny stories-

i can’t show you the images that document each step-

not because i don’t want to, but because i can’t.

privacy issues and all, you know, this legal system is for real.

it’s really hard.

i didn’t think it would be that big of a deal blogging personally and then professionaly- then i realized how personal my professional blog was/is-

there are tons of images i could share here, i am still shooting, shooting, shooting-

i can’t tell you how many times i’ve clicked “new post” to sit here, blank, with no words-

and certainly no images to pair with no words.

i’ve been at a loss- and they way i deal with that is to stick it in a compartment and pull it out occasionally- ending in overwhelming concern-only to end up back where it began, over there, in the “i’ll get to it eventually” compartment.

it’s a lot harder than i expected.

i think it’s because i am so thankful for each reader, and i really want you to get to see the reality of my life- and how it has all been flipped upside down- but i suppose that is not for now-

so, for now, i’m going to share with you a little bit about the parts of my life that i can.

and do my best to keep posting all the sweet images i am capturing of my incredible clients & to keep you informed about the SMP happenings!!

these images, are of the greatest treasures i have on this earth.  my sister jacklyn took them on my birthday when we all went to the lake to fly kites.

this is shawndrick.

my Godson.

he has a part of my heart that i don’t even know how to gain access too- only he holds the key.

he wears it around his neck and guards it- and has a hard time when people try to share it.

he is autistic.

he doesn’t speak.

but we have conversations that you can only have when you know someone so well that you can hear their eyes,  feel their heart.

he is afraid of the water.

we have worked on it for years.

on my birthday he walked into the water with me.

it was a great joy.

so, here is a bit of my life that i can share… and know that i’m working this out… and coming to a pretty great place!